Clare Crawleyis speaking out after news broke of hersplitfromDale Moss.

In a statement posted onInstagramThursday, the former Bachelorette, 39, said she only learned that her ex-fiancé would be announcing the news of their breakup after he posted about it.

“I was made aware of a ‘mutual’ statement at the same time you all were, so I’ve needed some time to really digest this,” she began. “Speaking for myself, my intentions with this relationship have always been very clear, so the truth is I am crushed.”

“This was not what I expected or hoped for and am still trying to process this,” she continued. “2020 was one hell of a year, with COVID, battling severe anxiety post-show, balancing a public new relationship, all while slowly losing my mother. It hasn’t been ideal circumstances, but that is life right. I have been looking forward to the light at the end of the tunnel.”

Concluding, she acknowledged their “relationship was not perfect,” but said she “was genuinely invested with all of my heart.”

The pairgot engagedlast summer after on Crawley’s season ofThe Bachelorette. Two weeks in, Crawley made an early exit to be with Moss, 32, and accepted his proposal, promptingTayshia Adamsto step in as her replacement.

Clare Crawley and Dale Moss.Craig Sjodin/ABC via Getty Images

Clare Crawley, Dale Moss

Moss announced their breakup on Tuesday onInstagram.

“I wanted share with you all that Clare and I have decided to go our separate ways,” he said. “We appreciate the love and support we’ve received from so many people, but this is the healthiest decision for both of us at this time.”

He continued, “We strongly believe in leading with love and always remaining true to oneself — something our families have taught and instilled in us throughout our lives. We only hope the best things for one another.”

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“Dale wasn’t ready for marriage and kids,” the source said. “He did have feelings for Clare but he wasn’t on the same page as her.”

The insider added that Crawley “quickly found out” that Moss “had cold feet but she was really hoping he would grow in the relationship and come around.”

“Things only got tougher after the show when they had to start making big life decisions,” the source said.

After getting engaged onThe Bachelorette, Moss and Crawleyspent ThanksgivingandChristmastogether, and they also went on a cross-country tripto their respective hometownsto get to know each other’s families.

source: people.com