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Mina Starsiak Hawkadmitted she’s been feeling “down” after a work-related disappointment.
“The work thing that, I can’t talk about it yet, was locked,” she says of the opportunity. “It was locked in. That was the word that was used. And I said ‘You sure it’s locked?’ If it’s locked, I’m going to book my tickets.”
She booked their flights and a hotel stay for three nights, but then found out, “Turns out you can unlock things that are locked.”
Since their bookings were nonrefundable, Mina and Steve — who are parents to 5-year-old son Jack and 3-year-old daughter Charlie —made the trip to New York anyway as a family vacation, which she says was “honestly, was kind of nice.”
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“The thing I was supposed to go for that I can’t really talk about yet, that didn’t happen, that’s supposed to happen later … I don’t know if that’s what kicked it off, but the last few days I’ve just been feeling funky, like down,” she says.
“When I get in that space, I realize what is happening is I’m just doing a lot of comparison to a lot of people that I shouldn’t,” she adds. “I’m making so many changes and so many decisions and not knowing if they’re the right ones or the good ones or the ones that are going to backfire.”
She continues, “I’m just constantly questioning everything I do, or don’t do. And every once in a while it just kind of gets to me when I am feeling a little bit, I don’t know, I guess vulnerable. I let that outside s— creep in."
Mina concludes that the feeling is no doubt relatable for her listeners.
“I’m sure you guys all get it,” she says. “There’s those people, or person, that you compare yourself to, and while we all want to pretend we’re above it, we’re just human and that’s what we do.”
Good Bones,wrapped its eight-season run in October. In an August episode of the podcast, she shared, “Today, I filmed my last few pickups forGood Bones.NotGood Bonesseason 8, but forGood Bones. So it is official, that’s a wrap, folks.” The series premiered in 2016.
However, Mina — who’s been candid about her falling out with her mom and costarKaren E. Laineand her brother Tad —acknowledged the challengesthat came with finding fame on the show.
“I think I knew … that this was going to be hard and it was going to challenge relationships, because when you put anything under a spotlight, in a pressure cooker, there’s the opportunity to explode,” she said. “And I myself am not stable enough to not explode at times."
Mina noted that her “whole complicated family organization,” many members of which have been involved in her business and in the creation ofGood Bones,includes a lot of different personalities and “people with so many different issues, weaknesses, things left to learn.”
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She added, “I just wish I had known how bad it could be.”
source: people.com
