Emily Ratajkowskiis getting candid about the differences between raising a son and a daughter.
“I wanted a daughter initially, but when I found out I was having a son, I was so relieved. Because I think that it would bring up — I want more children, so it might be something I deal with later — being sexualized way before puberty and being aware of it,” theMy Bodyauthor explains. “I have a memory: I did a sexy move down the wall of my parents' kitchen. I was probably in first grade and my parents were like, ‘Where did you learn that?’ I was like, ‘I fricking learned it. That’s what women do.’ "
Ratajkowski also gets candid about her birthing experience, saying she trusted her body in the moment.
“… I hate the idea that you become a mother and everything changes. It’s something I talk about in the book: You go from child to sex object to mother. But it was one of the most powerful physical experiences,” she says. “Being in a room and trusting my body — even though there are people around me who say that they know it better than me or that they have a right to it in some way — was hugely impactful.”
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“It wasn’t until I was rereading the whole book that I realized that at the beginning, there’s an essay about not being able to say no. And then in the hospital, I say no, my body responds to me saying no, and I give birth to my son,” Ratajkowski continues about her book.
Emily Ratajkowski.Eugene Gologursky/Getty
“When my husband and I tell friends that I’m pregnant, their first question after ‘Congratulations’ is almost always ‘Do you know what you want?’ We like to respond that we won’t know the gender until our child is 18 and that they’ll let us know then,” wrote Ratajkowski.
“Everyone laughs at this,” she continued. “There is a truth to our line, though, one that hints at possibilities that are much more complex than whatever genitalia our child might be born with: the truth that we ultimately have no ideawho— rather thanwhat— is growing inside my belly.”
“Who will this person be? What kind of person will we become parents to? How will they change our lives and who we are?” she said. “This is a wondrous and terrifying concept, one that renders us both helpless and humbled.”
source: people.com
